†o my deares†
joHn....
when you confessed †o me las† ni†e, my hear† s†ops bea†ing for a while, †he pain i was feeling s†ruck me ri†e †hrough my broken-hear†. i† fel† more like you...s†abbing me from †he back. i was hur† pre††y bad. i asked myself wha† have i done wrong...?! was i never good †o you?? were you jus† using me?? and when you said you loved me, was i† real or did you jus† pre†end?? and when you were kissing me, did you pic†ure her ins†ead of me?? did i le† you †ake my hear† and †ore i† apar† or did you s†ole 'em from me?? why did you hur† me like †his?? wha†'s in i† for you?? didn'† you know †ha† i cried many †ears for you every ni†e?? didn'† you know †ha† my †ears have gone dry now?? didn'† you a bi† know †ha† my love for you was real?? didn'† you realise †ha† i kep† on blaming myself coz i †o† i was wrong?? i blamed myself for no†hing...i've was†ed so many †ears for no†hing....i've was†ed my precious †ime and love for someone who doesn'† even care abou† me..who doesn'† even love me...all †his differen† kinds of ques†ions keep playing in my mind....will i ever know †he answers †o all my ques†ions??will i ever know why you're doing †his??? God! i† hur†s a lo† !!!
i† hur†s me †o leave you...i† hur†s me alo† coz im †he one who has †o do i†..i have never had †he in†en†ion of doing †his bu† i†'s no† like i've go† much choice...you've hur† me and im lef† all alone wi†h a broken-hear†...having no one †o ease †he pain...i†'s over be†ween us coz my love for you has died...i los† my †rus† for you and everyone...i don'† †hink i will ever †rus† anyone anymore...i guess we were never mean† †o be...you can called me a coward for no† doing †his in person bu† †o †ell you †he †ru†h i am scared...because saying goodbye is not my game...i gave my hear† and love †o †he wrong guy...why can'† i see †ha†?? why can'† i know †ha† †his was coming??? i guess you have made me blind †o realise i† wi†h all your swee† †alk... no† once bu† a million †ime †ha† i have been hur†...can'† imagine †ha† you were one of †hem...i gave you my hear† hoping you would mend i†..bu† you wounded i† even more...



Every time I think about you and I,

I break down and cry,

When I look into your eyes I know you’re the one for me,

But how can I not know that you’re also the one who’s going to hurt me,

I’ve shed many tears for you before,

And I’m wondering if you’re ever going to shed just a tear for me or even more.



Every time I think about you and I,

I just feel like a part of me wants to die,

When I feel like I want to break down, and cry, on and on,

I would just hope that you would give me a shoulder to cry on,

When people say bad things about me,

You were there to support me.



Every time I think about you and I,

My happiness disappears and tears roll down from my eyes,

I remember how perfect our love was before,

And every time I think about it, I’ll just miss it more and more,

When I feel cold,

I thought you’d be there to hold,

When my mind was confused as I was in fear,

I thought you’d be there to make it clear.



Every time I think about you and I,

I wish you were here to make my tears dry,

Each day I feel like I’ve lost you,

I need you to be the real you,

For you to love me and comfort me,

But I’ll never feel that inside of me,

I never meant it to be this way,

But goodbye is all I actually wanted to say…